It’s been almost 6 months, why do I still get wake up with tears in my eyes and wanting to break stuff every time I dream of her?

I took my laundry to the laundromat up the road because people in my complex seem to like the white guys soap and baskets.  I couldn’t really understand the woman very well but I think she asked me if I wanted any special soap or care for my stuff.  I ended up using my phone...More Please