I just woke up from a weird dream and wanted to keep the memory. Before I start, I haven’t heard from her in almost 2 months except for her saying one time to give her time. So this next bit is completely out of nowhere.
I don’t have a reason why but I didn’t question it either. Her kids came to stay with me for a week before school started and I absolutely loved every minute of it. The girl is a huge book worm and loves to read so day 1 we went to the library and she picked out a stack of books that I’d never heard of but we got them and her brother picked out one about monkeys and one about tigers. On the drive home the girl discovered my noise canceling range headphones in the back seat of my car and said her mom had some just like them(they were actually mine that I left there and got a new set so we could have a matching set). I said that’s cool. So for the rest of the week she wore them always. Her brother wanted some headphones too so I gave him my gaming headset and he used it on his Nintendo DS but it has a super long cord and he got it caught a handful of times and clotheslined himself once which was super funny. The week flew by with going to parks and RC cars in the back yard and playing a game called “Will it float?” Which resulted in a lot of Lego in my pool, swimming, watching movies at home before bed and a whole lot of videogames or YouTube of other people playing videogames. They had their own room but a few nights they slept in mine which meant the world to me. They lived off pizza, mac&cheese, gogurt, fries and rice. I made every effort to just be normal and not think about them leaving soon but the time came where the boy told me his mom was on her way to get them and she’d be there soon. I told them I needed to talk to them. Well I told the boy and had to motion to the girl to take her headphones off. I told them I love them both very much and I miss them every day they aren’t around and I’m sorry I can’t be there with them but they can always call or text me if they ask their mom first. They both just sat there looking at me like I was crazy. Then the daughter just says “why?” I tried to talk about that because their mom and I weren’t together that meant I wouldn’t be their dad and her son just looked down the rest of the time. I reminded them both I will always be here for them and I want updates from them all the time. Then headlights flashed by the window and we all knew that meant mom was here, they gave me a big hug and I woke up.
God Dammit.